Thursday, June 24, 2004
Restart
"Alone? No. Don't worry, you are no longer alone". I heard myself say it out loud. In shock of my own words, I repeated the sentence in a whisper and realised I was telling blunt truth. You are no longer alone.
Oh dear god, I thought, I must be going mad. What am I doing? This is suicide. Like allowing madness to enter through the front door. The word madness kept burning in my mind's eye like it would scar my brain.
Relief to the agonizing pain came only when I heard your soft voice say "Thank you, the knowledge that you care is sufficient". It was then that I realised that I was actually not alone. I felt so grateful and told you. You said "Alone?"
Oh dear god, I thought, I must be going mad. What am I doing? This is suicide. Like allowing madness to enter through the front door. The word madness kept burning in my mind's eye like it would scar my brain.
Relief to the agonizing pain came only when I heard your soft voice say "Thank you, the knowledge that you care is sufficient". It was then that I realised that I was actually not alone. I felt so grateful and told you. You said "Alone?"
